lv.

in my humble opinion, one of the best movie monologues . . . ever (quoted by marion, from the film, '2 days in paris')

"It always fascinated me how people go from loving you madly to nothing at all. nothing. It hurts so much.

When I feel someone is going to leave me, I have a tendency to break up first before I get to hear the whole thing. Here it is. One more, one less. Another wasted love story.

I really love this one.

When I think that its over, that I'll never see him again like this... well yes, I'll bump into him, we'll meet our new boyfriend and girlfriend, act as if we had never been together, then we'll slowly think of each other less and less until we forget each other completely. Almost.

Always the same for me. Break up, break down. Drunk up, fool around. Meet one guy, then another, fuck around to forget the one and only. Then after a few months of total emptiness start again to look for true love, desperately look everywhere and after two years of loneliness meet a new love and swear it is the one. . . until that one is gone as well.

There's a moment in life where you can't recover any more from another break-up. And even if this person bugs you sixty percent of the time, well you still can’t live without him. And even if he wakes you up every day by sneezing right in your face, well you love his sneezes more than anyone else's kisses."

liv.

for like-minded folks: january musts.



musician- justin vernon (i.e. bon iver).

band- peter wolf crier.

album- thelonious monk quartet with john coltrane at carnegie hall.

book- anything from the pultizer prize fiction list.

movie- 2 days in paris.

location- chicago.

liii.

the year in review: 2009 in status.

. . . .

New Years in Chicago! -january 1 @ 10:07 a.m. Is an Electric Eel. -january 8 @ 3:21 p.m. Beck. -january 18 @ 2:10 p.m. OBAMA! -january 20 @ 10:59 a.m. It is Valentines Day. Dont go on a date. Put on some sexy lingerie. Grab a bottle of wine. Bring a pillow you dont mind destroying. Come to our place for the best slumber party of your life! -january 21 @ 11:19 p.m. thinks Lindsey is WAY cooler then stupid giant Joshua!! -january 23 @ 10:48 p.m. Lykke Li @ the Varsity tonight! -february 8 @ 3:10 p.m. Lingerie & Wine Party! -february 14 @ 10:53 p.m. wildbirds & peacedrums. -february 18 @ 11:06 p.m. bathing in bubbles, tea & whitman. -march 5 @ 8:43 p.m. is housewarming. -march 13 @ 9:58 p.m. is actually Irish. -march 17 @ 9:57 a.m. is off to Chicago! -march 27 @ 8:27 a.m. is packing for North Carolina. -april 7 @ 12:07 a.m. is loving the family & North Carolina . . . -april 9 @ 7:17 p.m. just bought my lollapalooza tickets! -june 10 @ 11:20 a.m. mmm . . . farmers market. -june 18 @ 3:10 p.m. solstice. -june 21 @ 8:44 p.m. duluth. -june 27 @ 3:40 p.m. thinks lindsey is the coolest person by far!! -july 7 @ 12:36 p.m. nina simone. nina simone. nina simone. -july 25 @ 9:40 p.m. . . . coffee & ella fitzgerald . . . -august 16 @ 11:00 a.m. im getting my new bike today! -august 31 @ 12:24 p.m. got the promotion!! -september 4 @ 10:48 a.m. re: stacks. -september 7 @ 7:51 p.m. Enjoy this fuckin fleeting season and come fuck around with us. -september 8 @ 10:31 p.m. blue lips. blue veins. -september 19 @ 11:56 a.m. p.y.t. -september 20 @ 6:07 p.m. doing my first spoken word tonight @ the artists quarter . . . -september 28 @ 11:17 a.m. Goo McGee: A Series of Unfortunate Goo's. -october 7 @ 2:11 p.m. exhibits. birthdays. zombies. oh, my. -october 9 @ 10:48 a.m. Cornucopia! -october 15 @ 11:20 p.m. this time tomorrow . . . LA! -october 27 @ 7:18 a.m. L.A. L.A. Land. -october 29 @ 12:09 p.m. is getting inked. -november 1 @ 7:27 p.m. "be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind." - dr. seuss -november 29 @ 11:24 a.m. one can stand anything except a succession of ordinary days. -goethe -december 2 @ 6:53 a.m. a morning-glory at my window satisfies me more than the metaphysics of books. -whitman -december 3 @ 9:41 a.m. The creation of something new is not accomplished by the intellect, but by the play instinct acting from inner necessity. The creative mind plays with the objects it loves. -jung -december 10 @ 2:44 p.m. But I will wear my heart upon my sleeve for daws to peck at. -shakespeare -december 11 @ 3:30 p.m. to praise the sun is to praise your own eyes. -rumi -december 15 @ 2:37 p.m. . . . playing with the materials of life that exist between expectancy and reality. -december 21 @ 11:04 p.m.

lii.

love vs. regret



its love verses regret
to forever be on your arm
or to tell how we once met

should i keep my forever closed
or, should i take the bet

of love forever gained
or forever lost
our fates fully exchanged
our independence at any cost

just let me tell you
how i need to go
but please tell the stories
of how you see us grow

grow in skin
and in soul
grow from two
into whole

yet, i will delicately
pull away
and you'll ask me why
you'll beg me to stay

but my breath as is short
as my excuses are low
please dont ask me why
for its love i do not know

-me

li.

You keep track of all my sorrows.
You have collected all my tears in your bottle.
You have recorded each one in your book.

psalms 56:8